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15 oct
sorry its a dream
main apne gher me ase hi soya hua tha….achanak kuch log aa gae tumhare sath…tumhe dekha mane….itni ajeeb…
baal bikhre hue..kapde dhang se pehnaya nehi gaya he…sar niche or halat itni kharab ki dekha nehi ja raha tha….mane pucha kya hua motti ko…tumhari mamma ne kaha pichle kai dino se soi nehi he…tabeat kharab he..bar baar ulti kar rahi he…badbada rahi he…doctor ne kaha he ise apne dosto k pass, apne apno k pass kuch din k lea chood do..sayad sahi ho jae….mane kaha motti ye kya haal bana rakha he pagal..itni badi ho gai ho..itni dimag lagane wali ase dikh rahi he…mujhese raha nehi gaya..sidha tumhare pass baitha…bahut der takk sar ko kandhe pe rakh k sukha hua sakal ko bas dekhe ja raha tha or dil se jo rona aa raha tha use muskil se control kar raha tha..
man hi man kiisi ko itna gali de raha tha..q kea yaar ye sab…..khood ki decession na le pane k karan se kisi ki zindagi ko karab karne ka kya haq tha….
khair sab thoda normal ho gae the…tum thodi thodi baat bhi kerne lag gai thi mere sath..sab dekh k khoos bhi ho rahe the…mamma ne mere hath pakda..unka thnaks kehne ka tarika mujhe saf pata chal rah atha….akhir beti unhi ki he…
fir sab mere gher me fail gae..sab mere lea khana banane lag gae…tum press mangi iron kerne k lea..main dea per tum itni kamjoor ki ker hi nehi pa rahi thi..fir tumhe wash room laga…tum gai ..main tumhare piche bahar khada raha…bahut der ho gaya…per tum nehi nikal rahi thi…..mujhe bacheni hui….ander se ultian ki awaz aa rahi thi…kaam dhaam chood k sab wanha khade and sab pareshan…ander kya ho raha tha kisi ko dikhai to nehi de raha tha per sab mehsus ker pa rahe the..
thode der baat darwaza khula…uff ulti k sath khoon..mane sidha apna hath munh k thoda niche jaise chahta tha ki wo sab nikle na per mere lakh chahne per bhi wo khoon mere hatho se hoker niche gir raha tha and tum khadi bhi nehi pa rahi thi…mane jor se chilla k bola plz koi doctor ko bulalo….doctor aya…tum bed pe soi hui thi…main pass me baitha tha…doctor ne kaaha inhe aram ki jarurat he….inhe akela chood do bas ek admi rahega jo sabse kareeb ho…
sab bahar chale gae…mamma ne mere kandhe per hath rakha or mujhe sab pata chal raha tha ki motti ko kaise theek karna he..bas main baitha raha tumhare pass or wo sadhi si sakal ko dekh dekh gussa bhi aa raha tha….itna tha sapna…
motti mane asa sapna q dekha yaar….
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you know aj mane ek sapna dekha….rudeman gher me shadi k lea haan bol dea he apne mummy papa ko ki main asha se shadi kar lunga….sab apne life ko dubara se suru karne ki kosis me he…hum dono bhi khoos he…nai life ki starting k lea bhagwan se pray kar rahe he….
you called me and puch rahe ho is diwali ko kya kar rahe ho..mane kaha kuch nehi sonaly di k yanha jaunga…nai jiju k sath pathake fodunga…fir tum boli “ok” thoda dukhi hoke….mane pucha q kya hua….tum boli kuch nehi badi di bol rahi thi ki tumhe gher bulate he ab…so puch rahi thi ki is deewali ko hamare gher ao…mane kaha ok ate he fir…
tumne kaha and plz jab hum gher janege to main di k sath baithungi bus me ..mane kaha nehi mai kya karunga fir..tumne haste hue kaha piche songs sunte rehna ok….
fir main tayar ho gaya…hum chd me mile..di se bhi….bus me baithe…tum mere passs and di age …sab khoos the….bus me dunia bhar ki bate kar rahe the and di beech beech me kuch khane ko de rahi thi…fir hum gher pahunche…..mane mumma ko namaste kea….unhe hug kara or mumma mere dono galo me haath rakh k puchi safar kaisa raha…mane kaha theek he…..gol gol ghumta rehta tha bas..road me 
fir mamma mujhe andar leke gai…..khana khilai..mujhe bada souk he sausr ji k gher me khana khane ko…sab itne pyar se khana paroste he….oi hoi…puch puch k 4 baar khana dete he..jid kar kar k aacha laga wo sab…fir hum sam ok pathakhe fode..tum mere lea ek new dress lai thi wo main pehna……kachori khae…and sab bahut khoos the..tum bhi kuch jyada hi
hum tumhare greel k pass khade the……..tum thodi der khadi rahi fir chali gai andeer…bas itna hi tha sapna motti 
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aj mane fir ek sapna dekha…tum main or v sab chd me rose garden me mil rahe he….v wanha pehle se tha..hum dono pata nehi kaise ek sath vki taraf ja rahe the..tum mujhse baat nehi ker rahe the..main bas bole ja raha tha…tum sidha v k pass gai or uske pass khadi ho gai…v mujhe jo merji me aa raha tha bol raha tha…main bas sab choop chaap sun raha tha….beech beech me uske sawalo ka koi bhi answer main nehi de pa raha tha….q ki main hamesha galat kea tha…q ki tum mere sath nehi thi…main v ka pair pakad lea …wo mujhe ek laat mara..fir bhi main use nehi chood raha tha..tum bolli mujhe pehli baar bander pair chood do..per main nehi choda ..main bas bol raha tha plz v mujhe uske sath rehne do….v kuch bhi nehi sun raha tha…
fir main gusse me ake uska pair chood dea or apni spects ko niche jamin me joor se faik dea…uska ek piece return ake mere ankho pe laga…khoon bahne laga…main ankh pakad pe wanhi pe so gaya…chillaya…v mujhe uthaya tak nehi…thodi der baad tum nehi seh pai or mujhe ake uthane lag gai…
main tumhari goad pe sar rakh k ro raha tha ankh pakad k..chilla raha tha bhagwan mujhe maut dedo….v ne hospital ko call kara…ambulance ai…main hospital me tha…bed ki choti si sise se main bas tumhe dekh raha tha…tum meri di wagera ko gher ko cal kar rahi thi ki bander ka asa ho gaya he…
thodi der baad sab mere pass ake pahunch gae…mamaji mujhe dant rahe the..sonali di mamaji ko room se bahar nikal dea…main sonali di k pass chilla chilla k ro raha tha..motti se ek baar milne do..ek baar dekhne do…meri baat koi nehi sun raha tha na hi tum..
mane kaha motti i just wanna to hug you once…tum sun hi nehi rahi thi fir sonaly di mujhe jor se pakad li…meri ankhe band thi per main pahchan lea tha ki wo sonaly di he…sonaly di bol rahi thi bander ab choop ho jao per mujhe pata chal raha tha ki wo tum nehi thi…or mujhe jyada rona aa raha tha…
bas yahi thi kahani..
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i saw a dream today.23 august morning…main hamare gher me tha…tumhara gher hamara gher k pass…and u leaving in chd…tumhare tau jo he wo mere bade aache dost he…ok tumhara naam nilam (my motti)…hum ase hi baithe the ,gappe mar rahe the ..wo unke beto k bare me bol rahe the main apne life k bare me…ase hi baat karte karte nilam ki bata bhi hui…wo ap k papa k bare me bol rahe the ki 3 bati he ..shadi shudi kaise hoga ye wo…fir unhone khood hi kaha ki sabki to ho jaegi aache se ..nilam ki hi chinta ho rahi he sabse jyada….mane kaha q ..unhone bola ase chood chal gher chalte he…
mane kaha bolona fir unhone kaha ki are chood..wo kisi se pyar karti he or bolti he wanhi shadi karegi..mane pucha nilam ne asa bola?unhone kaha nehi meri us ladke se baat hui thi…mane kaha oh..ladka kya karta he…unhone kaha job karta he kanhi…pehle kanhi truck chalaya karta tha…or nilam ek 5k ka job….mane kaha ap riste se khoos ho…unhone kaha kaise ho sakta hun or ro pade…mane thoda samjhya bhi….chalo bacho ki khoosion me khoos raho…or kya chahea…mane fir pucha dono ki shadi ho jaegi ? unhone kaha mujhe kya pata…
bas itni thi …baki unhe utna hi pata tha jiitna mujhe..usse jyada nehi…
motti tumne mere sath galat q kea…
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27 july 1 pm
Pichle teen din se sayad ek berger or ek cold drinks pike zinda hun main.Itni kamjoori me kab aj neend ai pata hi nehi chala.ek sweet sa sapna dekha u in my room.OH MY GOD.tum mere room me.wo bhi mere sath reh rahe ho.tum ai ho mujhe dekhne k lea with some fruits and mango juice k sath.main lapi me tumko hi dekh raha tha ki tum piche se ake mujhe dekhne lagi or boli abhi bhi lage pade ho.main hasa.ghabra gaya.fir bed thoda sa saf kea or baithnne ko bola.tum baithi nehi bas khane ko jid kea “ise sab khatam karoge to hi main baithungi”.main do char banana kha bhi lea or bahana kara ki ab jyada khaunga to ulti ho jaegi.tum khoos ho gai.
Fir raat ho gai.light chali gai.mera room mate room me nehi aa raha tha.tum bahar loun me chali gai ghoom ne.main tumhare piche piche.i touched your hand.tum gussa kari.mane sorry bola.FIr ek baar or pakda.tumne kuch nehi kaha.main rone hi ja raha tha ki tum boli bander abhi nehi.main has pada.Bas chand ki wo thodi thodi rosni me main tumhari pair ko theek se dekh bhi nehi pa raha tha per bahut der se jhank raha tha.
Fir tumhe bath room jana tha.main waise hi bahar khada intezar kar raha tha ki kab wapis ae.Per wo darwaza age kabhi nehi khula.Main intezar karta raha per wo kabhi nehi khula.Bas itna tha sapna.
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15 may
Aj mane pure dopahar k itni badi germi me ,dhoop me ek itna aacha sapna dekha…per na aj sapne me motti thi na hi rudeman…na ladai na nothing….sirf mere gher wale…mane sab ko bata raha tha ki mane motti ki di se baat ki…motti bhi ab khoos he…per uska dukh sirf mujhe paata chal raha tha jo mane kisi ko nehi kaha na hi kisi ne mehsus ki…mane gher pe batadi ki sab sahi he ab…..and i am happy now….and di huged me …and said pagal bada ho ja now…jimmedarian sikh le…and hum sab sath he tere….papa bagal me baithe the halaki papa real me ase kabhi nehi karenge per unhone mere jangh ko thap thapaya and uth k chale gae….hehe papabhi sapne me….wishes…..wahh…..
kehte he din ka sapna sach ho jata he yahuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
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20 apr
Kal mane ek sapna dekha…jis din tumhare sath ladai hui tumne kaha darla ana he tu aa ….main bas pahunch gaya darla…kaise gaya pata nehi…tumhare gher k samne khada tha…shadi ho rahi thi wanha kisi ki….tum ek sunder sa green dress pehni hui thi….bahut sunder lag rahi thi….tum dekhi mujhe…dar gai…per bulai tak nehi…di khoob bulai..per main nehi gaya….wanhi baitha raha ek chote se pathar k pass raste me…sab khana kha k ja rahe the apne gher…mujhe koi koi dekh bhi raha tha..main 3 din wanhi baitha….kuch nehi khaya tha ,ek din tumhari mamma ne khana dea mujhe sabse chuapa k raat me wo bhi ….main kha lea…
Fir 3 din baad apke papa gher me ander bulae..main ander gaya….pehle nahaya…fir khana khaya….papa puche kaise ana hua..main kaha ase hi sab dost ae the yanha simla to main tum logo se milne aa gaya…papa ne kaha aacha kea….mamma boli chalo ab gher jao ..hum bata denge apko..:)
pata he jab main gher k ander tha or nahane ja raha tha to deewar pe ek snap tha tumhara or dadi ka…mane use chupa k apne bag me dal lea….chori ker lea mane bas itna tha…
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26 mar 11
Moti pata he aj fir se mane ek sapna dekha..:)
kaise batau pata nehi hum fir se juda ho gae the…Bina batae tum dur chali gai thi….pata nehi kanha…Main bahut ro raha tha…..na koi kaam ker pata tha na kha pata tha….Ek dum akela…Janha bhi kaam hota tha main gher se bahar hi nehi nikalta tha…moti kaise batau main wo time kaise spend karta tha..Jitna tum dur thi utna tumhari yaad or bhi aa rahi thi…moti i was just alone in this world that time….
Fir ase baith baith achanak yaad aya ki tumne ek bar bataya tha tum ek college me padhti thi..Bas or kya sidha utha or wo college k samne…moti wanha main 15 din 15 rate bitai …Har din college k librery me ki kab tum tweety ka book lene ao ..or haar wo raat bahar play ground me janha mere siwah or koi nehi tha…..
Per ek din raat tum ai pata nehi kya reason tha ane ka jab ki tum wanha padhti nehi thi….Main baitha tha play grond me wo street light k niche…
moti u saw me ,i saw u …bas mujhe or kuch nehi chaha tha…main bahut khoos tha….bas hum mile hamesha jab jab main chahaa tuhe apne dil se
is bar happy ending hua na is dream me hehehehe:) miss u motiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
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kal mane ek sapna dekha.main keh ta rehta hun na ki moti baat kerne do baat kerne do..to wahi sab sapne me
ekdin tum mujhe lene ai apne gher ko hehe wo bhi bike leke.bike q ki usme tumhe baithna dar lagta he per tum ai use chala k .
main bhi piche baitha.hum raste me ja rahe the ki ek nala jaisa kuch aya.bike kanha gaya kuch pata nehi .fir hum nale me pade hue chote chote pathar k uper pair rakh k ja rahe the us par.kabhi main gir ta tha to tum hath deti thi.kabhi tumgir ti thi to main hath deta tha.
fir us par pahunch k paidal chalne lage.tumhare kuch jaan pehchan k log tumhe puchte the ki ye kon he ye kon he .fir hum age gae.tum boli bander pata he main khood tumhe q lene ai q ki mere bhai tumse milna chahte he.fir mere to hos ud gae socha ab kya hoga.wo q mujh se milna chahte he.:)
fir hum gher me pahunche.tumhare mamma ne khana khilaya,papa baat kare patanehi koi dusra topic tha fir sapna tut gaya jab tum mujhe apne darwaje se dekh rahi thi hum jab papa or main baat karte the.fir main uth k mere darwaje k pass gaya to tum wanha nehi thi .hehe sapna tut gaya.:)
sapna is lea dekha ki meremind me he ki tum mujhe ek din lene aogi.lene na sahi bulwa to jarur logi.
bike me tum is lea ae ki tumhe usme baithna dar lagta he.
hum nale me pathar k uper is lea chale taki main har waqt tumhare sath jyada time spend kaarna chahta hun.
mummy ne khana is lea khilaya ki i think main tumhare gher jaunga to koi gussa nehikarenge.apna lenge.
tum mujhe darwae se jhank k q dekh rahi thi i dont know
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mere life ka ek or sapna moti k lea per isme moti kam rude man jyada he.aj kal to use v sapne me dekhne lag gaya hun.
Hota asa tha ki moti roj jati thi pub, sam ko 8 baje .hehe halaki wo kabhi nehi jati thi reality me.ok then hum decide kare ki main or mera ek dost bhi chalenge roj chandigarh wali wahi pub me.
Hum roj chd se delhi updown kerne lage jo ki reality me mumkin nehi he.Fir main wanha us ko dekhne laga bas main jata tha sirf dekhne k lea use koi baat nehi hoti thi.Yes kabhi ek bar usse dance kea hun bas ase hi partners change hote hote aa gae honge.
Fir wo baat usne rude man ko bata di ki mujhe bander roj pareshan karne lag gaa he.fir rude man ne mujhe bulaya or hum log ek deal kare jo ki written tha.haha main bhi pagal yahi sapna dekhna tha jo unnatural he i dont know usme kya likha tha per jo bhi tha wo dono k lea nukasan tha usme bahut sare tax cut hone wane the jo bhi hamari kamai hoti thi.mujhe wo aacha nehi laga fir main gussa kar k bahar aa gaya.fir bahut sare log ake hume samjhane lag gae.
fir usi time moti wanha ake pahunchi.wo rude man k side me baithi halaki do char chair chood k per usi k row me.mujhe bas ek bar dekhi koi baat tak nehi ki.pata nehi deal kanha gaya,sapna kanha gaya,wo log kanha gae,rude man kanha gaya:)
main bas uske pair ko ek bar dekha tha na ki us k munh ko .aj bhhi uska pair utna hi sunder tha jitna us diin jab hum hospital k samne pehle bar mile the baris me ,chata k niche…
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7 feb 2011
moti pata he aj tum bahut sunder lag rahi thi…tum ek green saree pahni hui thi…and ek sunder sa payal….and ek sunder sa sandal….hath me bahut sare chudiann….aj kal to tum sajne sawarne bhi lagi ho…hehe mane ye sab aj raat k sapne me tumhe dekha….pata nehi tumhe main kanha mila per ek railway station k pass mila…rudeman bhi tha wanha…wo mujhe tumse baat kara raha tha….main v se baat kar raha tha or tum wanha khadi thi…main tumhe hazar bate bola per tumne ek ka bhi ans nehi dea …
moti ase q sapna ata he yaar…fir tum thodi der baad chali gai ek train ki taraf..main v se kaha mujhe tumse baat karni he or piche piche bhaga..per tum age age chali ja rahi thi ek local train ki taraf…tum ek do bar palat k dekhi bhi…per ruki nehi…main bhi tumhare piche piche bhagta raha per tum wo train me chadh gai ..main apna sara takat laga k bhi na hi tumse baat kar paya na hi wo train me chadh paya..main bas tumhe dekhta raha or tum chali ja rahi thi dur dur bahut dur mujhse….fir wo train thodi der jake left ko mudi and main tumhe last bar dekha us train ki khidki se …tum bas ek smile de rahi thi or main chillate hue ro raha tha…moti meri ek bar sunlo ..
moti
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17 march 2011
aj mane fir tumhare bare me ek sapna dekha..
main just pahuncha tumhare gher me..
are abhi to theek se yaad nehi per main gaya tha tumhare gher me..
bas itna yaad he hum baith k snpas dekh rahe the…pata nehi ajeeb ajeeb sa game khel rahe the…
kichiad me gadi gir gaya tha hum use utha rahe the..haha
hmm shop bhi gae the sath me…
ate waqt baris ho raha tha tumne kaha bander ab gher kaise jae…:)
hmmm tumhari gher me ek diary pada tha…usme pata nehi kya kya likha hu atha…
dadi se mila..pata he dadi boli mujhe dekh k are bander tum hehe..
main pagal ho gaya hun na?
